Sunday, May 19, 2013

Again


Three days ago while taking a sweaty, glaringly sunny walk around my neighborhood 
a truck passed me with a license plate which snagged my gaze.
The first three letters were of my daughter's name.

My second daughter.

My eyes drank it in.

I watched till the random truck with the precious license plate disappeared around a hedged corner.

That had meant way, way too much to me.

"Time to write", I realized.


Normally, I would spend a few posts catching up here.
I mean, I haven't downloaded my brain on this blog in almost 6 months. 
Normally, I would've posted the annual recap post...
a New Year's post...
a January post or two...
a few posts of noteworthy pictures for memorabilia...
next, trot through February and March posts...
then an April post for Ethan's birthday...
and finally May would bring an anniversary post here.

Normally, I prefer to back up and blog chronologically
for posterity's sake
so that the printed version I keep for my kids,
 in place of scrapbooking which I gave up on 2 kids ago,
would make sense for them, my Intended Readers, one day.

Normally, I would

pace

myself

methodically

as I tried to retrace steps since December 10, 2012 and 
recapture all that I could, in order. {That? Ain't happening. I ain't feeling real methodical.}

Back then we'd done the "Before, During, After" of adoption
and we were in the "Beyond".

Now? We're in it Again.

January 18, 2013 we saw her face and there's no going back, no other road,
no way we could entertain anything else, 
no way we could ever walk away.

5 months later with a 
completed, translated, immigration-approved, apostille'd, and consulate-stamped dossier 
about to be submitted to IBESR in Haiti,
I am catching my breath.


This blog reboot will be messy and chaotic
because I am about to have 5 kids, y'all.

Five.

*shrug*
Eh, methodical pacing is overrated anyhow.
This? Really crazy, disheveled messiness while we bring home our girl?
So way better.